Anniversary

I commemorated you last night,
Although
Completely by accident.

You darted out from the powder pavements
Skirting my memory
- like a wild wretch
Paltry in register and reason.
The season has been unkind,
Sealed in static and skeletal
Treason: trees illuminated grey and disconnected stars,
Disconnected veins.

I traced the place where we once parted.

Pencil gallows, plainly fallow fields of
Shameful chagrin pinned the hawk cry
Like an arrow. We were frozen there,
Marred by a detonated letter,
A blinding bouquet of devastation.

I dreamed I could wind back this cruel clock-
And undo the shock absorptions that have
Never
Ceased to stop.
Hopeless brutal blows, an imbroglio of
Triage and misery-
Entrenched-
Clattering agony that perpetually
Taunts this vacuum of trauma and
Sainted Titanic fury,
Defilement.
Injury.

In this latest impasse, I sought you-
Or rather,
My haphazard heart-
A surging flare of scarts unsoothed
And bright ballistic brainwaves
Scattered in the shrapnel of footprints
And your shielded Samneric shadow-
Darted to welcome me home.